On my long drive to Fort Hood yesterday, I was of course assaulted by the variety of roadkill omnipresent on Texas's highways. I had cringe-worthy near misses with birds, mostly of the scavenger variety as they left their sun-baked feasts just in the nick of time. I recall thinking, "Fucking bird!" and wondered if he must have thought, "Fucking car!" I saw a turtle, a fairly large one, maybe the size of my head. He was in my lane traveling right to left across the road. It sounds like ...

Yes, intimidated, not wet-your-pants afraid. Marines and other "manly men" In this case, I know why I'm still intimidated now . I'm afraid that I'm not one of them , whether it be because they actually made it as a Marine (I simply quit before I got to that point), they can work well with their hands (I've never really tried), or they're "manly" (which I am, too, in a good number of ways, but I still worry about not measuring up). Where it came from originally? My Dad isn'...

Where does fear come from? It comes from within us, but before that, what was the origin of a specific fear? My lack of confidence feeds my phobias, as I feel unable to overcome them, and I'm filled with dread even when facing the possibility of them. Heights I don't know where my fear of heights comes from. Was I dropped as a baby? Dangled too high by my tall Uncle Mike, who loved to rough-house with my constantly fearful toddler-ness? But it continued to affect me, continue s...

"Pray for what you want, but work for what you need." Buffet Palace Killeen, TX"

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I'm still working on my undergraduate work. I've sent away for my Associate Degree from the Defense Language Institute (and I should've months ago), and I expect it in the mail by the end of next month. I'm currently taking History II, am in the third week, but still stuck in the middle of the second weeks' work. Such is my online education. On top of that, I've signed up for another class to start two Mondays from now (at the beginning of my fifth week of History). I'd better be cau...

"[He] had been born too late and too mediocre. Some men are born mediocre, some men achieve mediocrity, and some men have mediocrity thrust upon them. With [him] it had been all three. Even among men lacking all distinction he inevitably stood out as a man lacking more distinction than all the rest, and people who met him were always impressed by how unimpressive he was." Link "